Most you that are part of this community know that I used to be a drug addict. I was an active addiction for about ten years. My clean date is August 21st, 2015. My drug of choice was heroin. I would take Any opiates I could find though. Morphine, methadone, oxycontin, vicodin, opana, or anything else. I remember when I finally made the decision to get clean. I called my Mom who lives in Florida and told her everything. I asked her if I made my way down there would she help me detox. Fortunately she said yes. She had every reason to say no. I had claimed several times over the years that I was going to get clean. I would promise everyone I was going to get clean. My life was just too fucked up. I’m going to do it this time. I would have a little initial success and then fall flat on my face about a month later. On some level drug addiction has to do with seeking comfort. You are comfortable when you are high. However with opiates you go through withdrawal when you quit. Opiate withdrawal is one of the most uncomfortable things I’ve ever went through. I went through this agonizing withdrawal process over and over and over again. Sounds crazy right? Well guess what, it is. No drug addict wants to be a drug addict. I know people say that a lot but it’s true. I always wanted more. I didn’t want to be where I was or even who I was I just didn’t know how to climb out.

 

I always tried to run from the withdrawals, the pain, the mental anguish. Everyone around me was very understanding in this regard. They didn’t want to see me in pain either. That’s human nature. We want to help people when we know they are in pain or are struggling. What if we had compassion towards drug addicts and we introduced them to the idea that the pain, the uncomfortable state you are in right now is just a bridge. That pain is a bridge to get you where you want to go. I know right now you don’t even know what you want exactly but this bridge is to a better life and freedom. I’m not saying you have to like it. I’m saying I’ll help you any way I can but try, just try to embrace it a little bit and I promise every day that goes by will get a little easier. Those tough days will start to stack up on each other like bricks and upon that foundation something beautiful can be built. So take my hand and let’s go on this journey to a place you’ve never been. It’s not going to be easy but it’s worth it. Beautiful things lie just across this bridge for you. It’s just foggy right now and you can’t see it but come over here and take a glimpse through my binoculars at what can be.

-William Ferris

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